Prayers

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I haven’t prayed much throughout everything. I don’t know why that is. Well, I do know why but some things should stay personal. I cannot thank everyone enough for all of their prayers, wishes, thoughts, vibes, everything positive. Right now I do need to pray several prayers. I am a very worried mother and I’m sure I will be for the rest of my life. Please join me in prayer, however you pray. I need to meditate on these words and this will help ease my mind to get a few hours of shuteye…

Dear God, please guide the surgeons, nurses, assistants, and specialists. Guide their hands, heads, and hearts.

Dear God, please don’t let tonight be the last time I tuck my son in to bed. Please don’t take him from us.

Dear God, please give Evan back to us just as happy and full of smiles. I want my happy baby boy back.

Dear God, please don’t let this weekend be the last time Evan hangs out with his baby friends. Let them grow up together as children.

Dear God, please give Evan a full nights rest so he will be in the best form to go into surgery tomorrow.

Dear God, please allow this hospitalization and procedure to go without complications. Please cut Evan a break. I will gladly take it if you can spare him.

Dear God, please fill my heart with patience and understanding when people tell me, “Everything will be ok.” Please quiet my tongue from saying, “So then do you want to change places with me” and know that they just don’t know anything else to say. What do you say?

Dear God, please lift the load of worry from my heart and let me release in my trust into you.

Dear God, please help Evan’s father just as much as me. Provide comfort to extended family and friends as well.

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11 responses to “Prayers”

January 3, 2012

Jenn Elenbaas

My thoughts will be with you all day. I’m rooting for your precious little boy as usual. Hoping that you and Will can find moments of peace during such a difficult ordeal.

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January 3, 2012

Jennifer

I can not image how you both feel I would never want to be in shoes but I do pray for you as a mother you will always be worried but you sure have more worries than some of us. I am thinking of you and praying to God and I no there are no right words to say just that he is one of the most loved little boys ever and you are two of the best parents ever. Even though it made me cry keep posting your feelings it is good to get t out and it reminds us how lucky we are to have what we have!

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January 3, 2012

Kim

Hi!! My son Ethan is having his second open heart surgery on Thursday with Dr. Hirsch. We are very worried too- Ethan had a difficult and complicated recovery after his first surgery. He had an Interupted Aortic Arch with a VSD. He ended up needing a trach and came home on a ventilator. He was able to get his trach out in May- so thankful for that!! I actually heard about Evan through my mom- she gets coffee every morning from the same place and knew about Ethan’s surgery this week. They told her about Evan and said he was having surgery this week too. Maybe we will see you this week- sounds like we will be Pod mates. Praying all goes well today!!!!
Kim Sidlauskas
I’m on Facebook, hopefully we can connect!!! Would love to meet you.

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1. January 3, 2012
  
  Sarah
  
  Kim holy cow that is crazy. You graduated the year before me – what a small world! Yes I will try to find you on Thursday. I know where you will be!
  
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January 3, 2012

Brandi Gandy

I will pray those exact things for you! I had to constantly pray the verse Phil 4:6-7. It truly did bring me peace and I structured my prayers as the verse is structured. The days leading up the the surgery, I was edging, felt sick, cried a lot. On surgery day, I had a peace that is hard to explain. I know it was the prayers working. I still cried, but a healthy amount 🙂 It is so scary. I look forward to you guys getting past this next hurdle. I pray so hard that Evan does well and that you both have comfort, peace and stamina. I pray his recovery is quick and without complication. I pray his sweet spirit returns quickly. We knew Madison’s was returning when she stuck her foot in her mouth for her first time. Such Madison thing to do (she loves to suck on those toes). It took a few days to get her precious smile back, but when it returned, it never stopped.

I am tearing up thinking about how you are feeling. Big heart hugs.

Sincerely,
Brandi Gandy
http://www.caringbridge.org/visit/gandyfamily

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January 3, 2012

Jessica

It is terribly hard to send your baby into this procedure I know I did it almost a year ago. I remember wanting to run away with Greyson so nothing bad could happen to my sweet boy, we both know that wouldn’t have been the outcome had that happened. I remember just holding on for those updates and looking forward to the time when I would see my sweet boy in the recovery room. It was so easy for me to look past all those tubes and lines and see that my baby was there, he was alive, and God had heard all of our prayers and brought him back to us. Evan will come through and you will get to see him partially repaired. We will be praying for you all and everyone involved in Evan’s care over the next few days. Sending Heart hugs your way.

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January 3, 2012

Paula

Many prayers being said for your little man and your whole family. I remember your feelings so well and I will say an extra prayer for peace for your heart.

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January 3, 2012

Kate

Sari I encourage you to also meditate on Psalm 139. I love you guys.

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January 3, 2012

ashley

Father God, Please surround Sarah, Bill, and Evan with your ever loving grace. Father God put your arms around them and comforts them during these tough moments. Father God gives them hope. Sarah and Bill lean on him in these times. Put all your faith into God. Pour your tears and fears onto him. Trust God and he will do all these things. Lean on him because at times of hardship he is the one who will always be there.

Do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own. Matthew 6:34

Love you all

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January 3, 2012

Amy

First off, let me tell you I did pray for your child and will continue to do so…but I couldn’t help but laugh when you talked about people telling you “everything will be ok”. And I mean laugh in the sense of “relate”. My son also had several heart defects (Transposition of the great arteries, coarctation of the aorta, VSD, ASD, Taussing Bing) and spent the first five months of his life in CICU, not expected to make it. That was two years ago and honestly it seems like it happened to another person but I remember so strongly that exact same feeling of being so agitated by people’s comments. I felt like unless that person had been in my very shoes they had no idea what they were talking about. I didn’t mean it to be mean but it was all just too much. Now that I have been out of the situation for so long (seems like a lifetime!) I wonder what I would have said to someone in the same situation. Truth be told….I still don’t know….there are no words to comfort someone who has a sick child. I can tell you one thing that someone said to me that helped…..good or bad, joy or sad, THIS will not last forever. THIS has an ending, and no one knows what that ending is. We all hope and pray it is a happy ending but there will be an end. You go THROUGH things, you don’t live them forever. And one day you will look back and like myself, wonder what you would say to someone in your shoes. Beyond that, I say “good luck” and God is good all the time! 🙂

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January 3, 2012

Edie Partlo

Bill, Sarah, and Evan, I will think of you today and tomorrow and all the days that follow. Please know I am a person that doesn’t pray a lot either, but I have prayed today for all of you. I can not fathom the heartache you must be going through. Just keep doind what you two have been doing, because that little boys smile and determination is a reflection on how he has been loved so far in his life by everyone that he has come in contact with.Know you are not alone in this journey, you have lots of family and friends that love you all. May peace be with you. Take care of yourselves so you can take care of that sweet little baby of yours.

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