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  • Evan’s past couple days and surgery information.

    Evan’s past couple days and surgery information.

    Evan is doing better than anyone would have guessed that a ‘heart baby’ would be doing. Heart babies with conditions like Evan’s tend to have too much blood going to their lungs; this causes excess fluids to accumulate in their chest making breathing difficult. The breaths become shallow and fast causing a buildup of carbon dioxide in the body. Evan’s chest x-rays have been clear and his breathing has not become rapid enough for the doctor’s to worry. If this does happen then they will put him on lasix (water pill) to force the fluids out through his urine. They may also change his breathing air from ‘room air’ to something with lower oxygen (higher nitrogen) content. The air we breathe is about 21% oxygen and 78% nitrogen. Oxygen is a vasodilator, meaning that it causes veins to dilate or expand. Lowering the oxygen content in the breathing air will cause the veins to constrict and less blood will go to the lungs, which in his case would be a good thing. Reducing the flow of blood to the lungs is one of the goals of the first surgery, more on that later.

    Yesterday Evan decided that he didn’t like his feeding tube and gave it a good tug before I could grab his hand. He only managed to pull it out a couple inches and it easily went back in. He hated the tube and I think it was impacting our attempts at feeding him normally. Since he had taken his last couple bottles without issue, the nurse took out the tube and he’s been great ever since. This morning during rounds the doctors increased his food intake again. Sarah’s attempting to breast feed but we’re not quite there yet. We’re getting closer and closer at every feeding. He’s gone from 22 to 33 to 44mL of food (breast milk and formula) with the remainder of his calories coming from an IV.

    Evan got his first bath a couple days ago. Mom and Dad gave him a nice warm sponge bath in his bed. He did awesome, he wasn’t screaming or anything. We’ve barely heard him cry at all. I am sure that won’t last, but we’re enjoying it while it does. His skin is crazy dry so we’ve been liberally applying baby lotions to it to keep his skin from cracking and getting sore.

    Evan’s surgery is scheduled for the morning of Thursday July 28th. It should begin at about 8:30am and last 3-4 hours. The surgeon has not talked to us about exactly what is going to happen yet but we have talked to the cardiologists while they were making morning rounds. In general, two things are going to happen during this surgery, 1) Evan’s pulmonary artery (the one that sends oxygen poor blood to the lungs) will be severed from the lungs and combined with the aorta to provide larger and more consistent blood flow to the body. 2) A shunt will be put in place to send blood (in a smaller quantity) to the lungs.  The surgery will begin by putting Evan’s heart on a bypass machine. His heart will be stopped and the surgery will be underway. A nurse will provide us with regular updates during the surgery and we’ll get a tour of the cardiac ICU to help keep us occupied.

    Post-surgery Evan will go to cardiac intensive care for about a week. After this we may go back to the NICU we’re in now, or if he’s doing really well, we’ll go to the normal general care floor for another week or two. If all goes well then we’ll be going home about 3-4 weeks after surgery.

    If you would like to learn more about his condition and the surgeries you can read about it on our website here.

     

  • Life in Ann Arbor…Day 2

     

    Sarah and I ‘moved’ to Ann Arbor yesterday to await the arrival of little Evan. We were planning on moving sooner but with zero pre-labor symptoms we decided to wait until yesterday. She has not had anything other than Braxton Hicks contractions so far but if you ask me, he looks like he’s getting lower.

    Our hotel… well…it’s not without it’s issues. 1) it could be cleaner, especially the bedding. I understand that typically it’s only the sheets that are washed between patrons but that doesn’t mean I want to see hair from other people when I pull back the blankets. 2) A car alarm kept me awake most of last night and despite calls to the desk, they could not do anything until the morning. Morning came and the issue was not resolved until after 5pm when the owner finally showed his face at the front desk despite the staff going door to door and me calling the police hoping that they would tow it. Other than those two things the hotel is just fine especially considering the deep hospital discount we’re getting. I don’t suspect we’ll be spending much time here once Evan is born anyway.

    We went to Trader Joe’s here in Ann Arbor… I didn’t know what to expect other than Birkenstock’s, granola, and Toyota Prius’. It didn’t disappoint. Oh, and I guess there were groceries too. We didn’t end up buying anything although I was pretty impressed by the store. I’ll go back when I have more time to look around. I had no idea they had their own brand. Their meats looked especially good. There’s a Whole Foods here too, have not been there yet, maybe tomorrow. 🙂

    Non-stress test appointment was Monday 7/18 at 9AM. This test is very similar to the ones we had at Bronson every week. The difference here was that Sarah did not have to push a button every time she felt him move and they had an ultrasound machine in the area where they also did a quick check of how much fluid is surrounding the baby. Evan was on the low end of the range that they like to see but that’s to be expected considering he’s now two days past his due date and we think, a pretty big boy. As he continues to grow he’s been a lot more quiet, not moving around nearly as much as he has in the past. Hopefully he’s growing tired of being cramped…

    After the appointment we went to a really cute baby store called Elephant Ears. I felt like the store had a ton more girl things than boys. Some of it was pretty expensive… I had no idea that such small amounts of cloth could cost so much. There was a $100 sleep sack. <shudder> We each bought a couple small things because you just can’t resist cute baby stuff. I know that Evan doesn’t need a pair of $40 Keen sandals like dads and that he’ll probably only wear them a few times, but one day… mark my words, he’ll have some, just not today. I mean come on, look how cute they are. Click

    Our next appointment is on Thursday, another non-stress test and a routine OB appointment. Depending on how things look on Thursday we might decide to take some action to move things along or we might just keep waiting. Either way, the plan right now is to let it happen spontaneously unless nothing has happened by next Sunday (July 24th). At that point they would induce labor if he’s still being stubborn.

    Keep us in your thoughts…We will let you know if anything changes.

  • University of MI Appointment #3

    Mom and Evan are in the home stretch now, we’ve got just over a week to go! We have worked out most of the logistics for the birth, at least the ones that we can control, the rest is up to Evan and when he decides that he wants to make his debut.

    The appointment today was very routine and barely worth the drive to Ann Arbor, but that’s ok. They asked how Sarah was feeling, asked if she was experiencing any signs of labor such as contractions, fluids, etc. Nothing to report there. Then the doctor says, “ok, we will scheduled your induction for July 18th.” Huh? This is the first we have heard about being induced. We put the brakes on that… We want to let it be as natural as possible, the longer he stays in there the bigger and stronger he’ll be for the surgery. We informed her that we will be moving to Ann Arbor next week to wait it out and don’t want to induce until the following week if nothing has happened. We’ve talked about this with them before but I guess when you talk to a different OB every time the wires can get crossed. She had no issues with our plan.

    We talked about what to do if she does start having contractions before we get ‘moved’ to Ann Arbor and ran through a few scenarios…

    • Call the U of M Birth Center Triage if we have any questions 24/7  (speed dial added).
    • If her water breaks or she starts to have any bleeding then we go directly to the nearest hospital.
    • If she starts having contractions and they’re regular and strong we can go to the nearest hospital, if when we get there and they check her out, she’s not dilated very much then the best bet is to get back in the car and head to Ann Arbor.
    • If contractions get to be about 8 minutes apart, strong, 1 minute in length, and consistent for an hour then we would head to Ann Arbor.

    I don’t suspect that we’ll need to do any of these, but we’ve got to be thinking about them just in case.

    One concern to us is the possibility of Sarah needing a c-section so we talked about that also. In the event of a c-section Evan would need to be moved to Ann Arbor and mom would be stuck in Kalamazoo until she’s been released from ‘major surgery.’ What scenarios would necessitate a c-section?  We talked about a few of them and the doctor did not express any concern that a c-section would be needed. <fingers crossed>

    They listened to Evan’s heartbeat and sent us on our way. Drive time 3.5 hours, time in waiting room/exam room waiting to be seen 1.0 hours, actual appointment 20 minutes. 🙂 <shrug> oh well, lol.

    We will move to Ann Arbor next week, have 2 appointments in Ann Arbor starting the following week and if Evan has not come by July 25th then they will begin the induction process. They prefer to start the induction early in the week with heart patients so that it’s not happening over the weekend when the hospital and especially the pediatric unit is not at full staff. Good call!

  • University Of Michigan Appt #2

    University Of Michigan Appt #2

     

    We had our second appointment at the University of Michigan on June 10th. This appointment put little Evan at 34 weeks and 5 days.

    We started the day off with a fetal echocardiogram with Jane. Evan was awake and ready to play. He was rolling over and just moving a lot in general making it hard for Jane to get all the information she needed. It took a while but eventually she had measured everything she needed. Dr. Owens was looking at the images in another room and came in to talk to us as well as take some images of her own. She said that everything looked great and there were no unexpected surprises. Yay! Evan will not have another echo done until after he’s born at which time they will do a very extensive echo and gather all the details needed to plan his surgeries.

    We were approached about a research study and asked if we would like to take part in it. Connie came up to talk to us about the study and see if we were interested. The study is led by Dr. Mark Russell which if you read the last U of M post was the first doctor we met with at U of M that thoroughly explained Evan’s condition to us and what needed to happen to fix his heart. The study focuses on children born with heart defects and need open heart surgery. Some children have more difficulty recovering from the procedures than others despite all the steps taken to protect the tissues from injury. The purpose of the study is to see if there are any inherited factors that help determine the ability of each child to tolerate the stress of surgery. Our only involvement in the study is to allow them to take a teaspoon of Evan’s blood (which would happen at the first surgery when he is sedated) which they will use to look at his genetic markers compared to other babies. Then we give consent for the research team to get copies of Evan’s follow up appointments so they can track how he’s doing up until 6 years old. The team is make up of several pediatric cardiologists, an anesthesiologist, surgeon, and bio-statistician and they are looking to have 1000+ patients in the study. Participation in this study is a no-brainer for us. I hope that the information that they gather can help other children down the road.

    We talked to the Barb, the social worker about housing in Ann Arbor while we are there. We really need to get on the ball with this. We still have not booked anything and it’s only a month away. Barb is supposed to be getting us some information on corporate apartments. We really don’t want to stay in a hotel type room for that period of time. I’m really going to focus on this next week.

    We met with an OB/GYN for a pretty standard appointment. We didn’t really get anything out of meeting with her but <shrug> that’s ok. She gave us some information about the U of M triage phone, we talked about the group B strep test that every mom has to have before birth, etc. We asked about immunizations for people in contact with Evan and she echoed the need for the pertussis vaccine (whooping cough). This is the Tdap (Tetanus, Diphtheria, Pertussis) vaccine that everyone should have a booster of every 10 years. If you have not had one, get one, it’s deadly, especially to small children. It’s highly contagious and people can transmit the bacteria for 2 weeks after they begin coughing. The illness can last ~6weeks.

    At 3pm we had an ultrasound with Cathy… Measurement! This is what we’ve been waiting for! It was great. Evan was up to 5lb 8 oz. Yay!

    Next appointment at U of M at 38 weeks.

     

     

  • Baby Shower

     

    Some friends threw us a baby shower today and it was great. Karen Jackson prepared the food and as always, it was fantastic. Thanks Karen!

    Evan got lots of great things today. Lots of clothes, some nursery items, books, blankets, and best of all… The bedding set that we were hoping for! Thanks Miriam, Carie, Karen, and Heather! Thanks mom for the blanket that you made, it’s beautiful and soft… it will surely keep Evan warm when you’re not around to hold him.

    What a great feeling it is to have such wonderful friends. Here are a few pictures from the day… I took some video too but I need to do some editing before I post it.

  • Please get vaccinated

    Please get vaccinated

    I enjoy photography as a hobby and with such a vast online community it is easy to follow along with some of my favorite photographers as I try to develop my own brand of style.  One that I have followed for a while is Natalie Norton.  I don’t know how I found her, but she is good.  I’m not the best at keeping up with blogs and for a little while I hadn’t visited hers.  Then one day I noticed her header had changed, “I am a wife a mom and a wedding and portrait photographer. I live on the north shore of Oahu, Hawaii with my wonderful husband and four crazy sons, one of whom lives in Heaven. Thanks for stopping by.”

    Wait, lives in heaven?  Holy…. What did I miss???   Her 4th son, named after her beloved but deceased brother, had died January 7, 2010.  He was 2.5 months old.  Her heartbreak and pain were all over her website and postings, completely palpable.  I never knew her but could not help but weep for all her pain.  Her son died of Whooping Cough (aka Pertussis, caused by the bacteria Bordetella pertussis).  They thought he just had a cough and went to the hospital for fluids, fully expecting to be discharged that day.  They left the hospital with empty arms; the illness took his little body quickly.  It is likely that Natalie gave her son the disease.

    We were all probably vaccinated as children with the DPT, DTaP, or Tdap vaccine (which also protects against diphtheria and tetanus).  The vaccine protects you for 5-10 years.  Adults need boosters.  If an adult has a Pertussis infection, it will likely be mild and present itself as a simple cough or bronchitis.  But for babies it is extraordinarily deadly (92% of pertussis deaths is in infants younger than 4 months of age). Having babies vaccinated certainly helps, but her son was just too young to have had the full rounds of vaccinations necessary to give him full protection.

    She has many more entries about this tragedy on her old blog.  It is tremendously sad.  But, she and her husband are committed to being transparent with the grieving process to help others as well as themselves.  They have joined the Sounds of Pertussis campaign.  It is aimed at educating adults on the importance of getting their pertussis booster and curb the growing incidence of this highly contagious but preventable disease.

    If you want to visit Evan or any other infant, I want you to be protected.  I’ll get my booster after giving birth.  Dad will get his shortly.  Not only do we need to give our son every advantage, but as adults we should be on top of these easy things for all babies.  Healthy babies get sick too.  Visit Sounds of Pertussis or do your own research.  But please protect yourself and the little ones out there.

    Natalie Norton new blog

    Natalie Norton old blog

    Baby Gavin links

    News interview with Natalie and her husband

    Sounds of Pertussis

    Pertussis on Wikipedia

     

  • Mother’s Day

    Dear Evan,

    Thanks so much for the Mother’s Day kicks. I know they were out of love. 🙂 I’ll be honest and say that I really don’t think I’ve quite earned the Mommy title just yet. I think I’ll get that recognition from labor, late night feedings, and seemingly endless diaper changes. I can only hope and pray that I am still your Mommy next year. You should be about 10 months old by then and will be able to give some real hugs and kisses that day. Maybe even call me “mama” too. I can’t wait, son. I love you so much. Only 10 more weeks to go!! See you in a couple days at our next appointment.

    Love,
    Mommy

  • U of M appointments

    U of M appointments

    Last Thursday we had our all-day appointment at U of M.  We weren’t sure what to expect but hoped to come away with a better understanding of the process we are going through and the facility that will become our second home.  It didn’t take too long to get there – about 1.5 hours – but I can easily see how construction, traffic, or an accident could significantly change that timeframe.  I-94 is not fun or commuter friendly.

    The hospital was easy enough to find, and you have to pay for parking which I think stinks considering we’ll be spending how much money for services there??  I mean it is cheap (if you don’t lose your ticket…)  Unfortunately we will not be in the new women and children’s hospital, but we should be over there for his other surgeries.  Too bad, because it looks and sounds lovely.  The old hospital… well… let’s just say the conditions don’t exactly match the caliber of care provided there.

    8:00 am – Cardiologist appointment

    Our first appointment was to receive our second echocardiogram at the Pediatric Cardiology center in Mott Children’s Hospital.  We got to meet with Kathy, one of the nurses and the one who would help guide us through our day.  I was especially looking forward to this appointment as previously there was a slight discrepancy in what his condition might actually be, and this was an opportunity to have another expert provide their opinion.  The tech was very thorough, albeit a bit fidgity and fussy at times, probably due to a lack of angle cooperation by baby tricky.  We met with Dr. Russell who confirmed the diagnosis of Dr. Fountain-Dommer.  He actually gave her some kudos and spoke very well of her for catching this different condition and not going along with the suspected condition of HLHS.  We asked him to point out some structures on the echo and he happily answered all of our questions.

    What we learned:

    • UofM sees about 50-60 single-ventricle cases a year, so about 1 a week.  About 30 are HLHS.  There are a decent amount of TA cases, TA/l-TGA is still rarely seen.
    • The first surgery, the Norwood procedure, will happen within the first week of life
    • If we need to have any specialized equipment at home, it might be a feeding pump.  Hopefully he will pick up feeding, but if needed he will continue to be tube fed.  They will teach us CPR and how to insert his tube before we are discharged.
    • At minimum, Evan will be on baby aspirin and diuretics – hopefully that will be it!

     

    9:30 – OB/GYN appointment

    We shuffled off to the Taubmann center for our next appointment.  I had no idea really what this appointment was for, other than to load my information into the database.  We did come prepared with questions, particularly because we felt that these were the individuals who would be able to give us the best birthing information.  We met with Dr. Mozurkewich and again she answered all of our questions.  We also talked with a nurse who gave us information on the 3rd trimester as well as a pretty nice birthing book.  most of our time in this appointment was spent waiting, but that was ok because we could go over the info received at the cardio appointment.

    What we learned:

    • Cesarian births are not encouraged, and there is a strong leaning toward natural childbirth (I use natural to mean vaginal).  The thinking is that 1) he is still connected to me until they cut the cord so he should be ok 2) the compression of giving birth helps to free fluids from the lungs and promote circulation.  Obviously if a c-section is needed it is done, but they encourage one to try.
    • Whether we induce or not depends on personal preferences and the opinions of the cardiology group.  They do not see harm in waiting for nature to take its course.  First babies usually take a little while, so even the drive from Kzoo does not make  them lean one way or another.
    • Whomever is on call will be delivering, so we might meet the particular doctor before hand or maybe just that day
    • I  will deliver in an operating room (more detail about that later)
    • Episiotomies are not commonly performed
    • If I want to have a medicine-free birth, that’s ok.  They will probably add an IV port just in case
    • With a natural birth, as many people as I want (realistically) can be in the room.  With a c-section, only Will would be in the room with me
    • I’m glad we brought a backpack to hold all of our paperwork!

     

    11:00 – Social Worker appointment

    We were supposed to meet with our surgeon next, but since we were  meeting her between surgeries, we needed to be a bit flexible with our time.  We went back to the Pediatric Cardiology center, paged Kathy the nurse, and she got a hold of Barb, a social worker with the department of pediatric cardiology.  She has worked there for 22 years and holds a wealth of information

    What we learned:

    • If we want to have him baptized, blessed, or christened before surgery we can do so.  The hospital chaplains can provide the services or we can have our own person come in.  Just thinking of it makes me cry but something we will want to do.
    • We will deliver in the high-risk  side of the Woman’s East birthing center.  We will do the great deal of our labor in the room, and when the time  comes to get the show on the road, I will be wheeled down the hall (~100 ft or so?) to an operating room.  It doesn’t really look like an operating room like you see on TV, but it is more important that adjacent to the room there is a newborn crash room.  It holds every kind of equipment they might need in case  something goes wrong.  He will be whisked away into there after birth and if he’s pink and breathing ok, they will bring him back to be with us  for a few minutes.  Hopefully this is the case because it is extraordinarily important to me to get pictures of him with no scar and not hooked up to anything.  Evan will have tubes and wires for the next 4-5 weeks, so images of him looking like every other normal baby will be  awesome.
    • He will spend the next week-ish (until his surgery) in the NICU.  Hopefully he will be a big ole fat turkey baby and will look out of place next to those skinny babies.  We pray that his breathing will be ok and he won’t need to be on a ventilator, because if he is, then we won’t be able to hold him.  And I don’t know about you but not being able to hold your  new baby is not something I am prepared to deal with.
    • There are 40 NICU beds (10 beds in 4 rooms) and only 2 people can be bedside at a time.  Anyone can visit but they MUST be healthy.
    • While in the NICU, we can bring something that smells like us but most comforting to him would be recordings of our voices, like if we read books to him.  That is the sense he is most used to at that point.
    • Surgery will be on the 5th floor and afterward he will stay in the cardiac NICU which only has 15 beds but is specifically monitored by cardiologists.  He’ll be there 1-2 weeks I am thinking.  100% of babies are on ventilators after surgery, so we will only be able to touch his little hands and such.  This might not be a bad thing because I am not sure I would want to hold him because he will be so delicate.  Sometimes the chest is left open and there are quite a few tubes to drain fluid.  Here is an image of a Facebook friend’s little baby after this surgery and we would anticipate Evan to look pretty similar.  Warning – it is a little tough to look at.  And double warning – this is the sweet little baby that passed away and I mentioned in a previous post, so  don’t read the blog if you don’t want to cry.
    • Once he is off the vent and tubes start to come out, he can transition back to the NICU or bypass that entirely and go to the general care recovery rooms.  While in these rooms, we’ll be able to do real parent things like change diapers and feed him.  Gasp!  He will have been tube fed up to this point and then it is on to bottles and then breastfeeding.  Bottles are easier on weaker babies, so they like to start with those.  He will be staying in the room and there is a larger bed for parents to stay in too.  They encourage parents to stay in the room by switching on and off.  Here we will learn CPR, how to put in his feeding tube, and how to take care of his wounds.  We’ll be there for about 2 weeks and can then go home.   Yay!
    • He will have his “little boy” procedure after his surgery, while in the general care room.  Like he doesn’t have enough problems already, right?  Poor fella…
    • They have pumping rooms and freezer storage system to keep track of everything so we can make sure Evan gets the most nutrition, even if he gets it via tube
    • We may be eligible for Children’s Special Healthcare Services or 30-day Medicaid services as well
    • Mott is billed under the U of M health system

     

    11:45 – Meeting with the surgeon

    This occurred during our conversation with Barb as the doctor became available.  Her name is Dr. Jennifer Hirsch and she looks way young (we guestimate she should be ~42ish but easily looks 10 yrs younger), is very beautiful (her official doctor pic does not do her justice), very smart (she went to Harvard people), and was extremely kind and open to talk to.  She was the first person at U of M to ask if our son had a name and  referred to him as Evan when talking about him.  Evan will die without any surgical intervention so it was surreal to meet the person who is going to save his life.  We cried after she left.  It is a bit overwhelming.

    Things we learned:

    • 75% of babies will live to have the  2nd surgery at 4-6 months.  Not that this was new info, but it confirmed some of the numbers we had read about online.
    • The timing of the 2nd surgery will depend on how fast he is growing.  In the 1st surgery, they will put a BT shunt to reduce bloodflow to his lungs (otherwise too much would go there and not enough would go to the body).  They have to guesstimate the shunt size, and essentially when he outgrows this is when he has the 2nd surgery.  If born on July 17, that would give a November-January timeframe.  I’m not  excited about it being holiday season and illness season to have open-heart surgery.  It also makes it trickier to know when to take time off of work, but we’ll just have to play it by ear.
    • For the 2nd surgery, they detach the superior vena cava and attach it passively to the pulmonary artery (this is the big vein coming from the head/arm/upper body region).  They do this one first (instead of the inferior vena cava which is the big vein returning from the lower body) because babies are all head and it will provide the most relief for the heart.  Once kids become mobile and start to use their lower bodies more (18-36 months old) then they have the 3rd surgery to attach the body vein passively to the pulmonary arteries.
    • Evan will be cyanotic until the 3rd surgery (blood oxygen level below 90%) but will look like kids when they get out of the bath – a little blue to the lips and fingertips.
    • She gave us her email and encouraged us to send her any questions or comments we might have

     

    After this we hauled ass to go get something to eat.  It’s like they didn’t schedule a time for this or something… very weird…

     

    1:30 – Genetic Counseling appointment

    We had to have this appointment even though we received genetic counseling at Bronson.  It’s just part of the packaged deal.  This was at the Perinatal Assessment Center also in Mott.  It was nice to be able to talk to someone again if we did have questions.  They offered an amnio again and we declined.  Given that no other health issues have come up on ultrasounds we feel the likelihood of him having any genetic condition to be low.

     

    2:30 – Ultrasound appointment

    Yay more pictures of baby boy!  The tech was lovely and from Kzoo.  She said everything was looking good except he was being a little uncooperative and tricky.  Afterward, we met with Dr. Treadwell and she confirmed that she did not have any concerns for any other conditions to be present.  A nurse, Liz, gave us a tour after the US and showed us the birthing areas and NICU on the 4th floor.  It was very nice of her to take the time to help us get a sense of things, although I think we will want a more general tour too in the future.

    What we learned:

    • Evan weighs about 3 lbs@ 28 weeks, putting him in the 59th percentile.  Definitely thought he would be bigger but I think he will have plenty of time to get huuuge.
    • Evan is very limber.  He was sitting breech, I think footlong breech, because he was holding one foot right up to his face.  I’m not sure where the other one was?

     

    We are going to go back June 10th for another cardio, OB, and ultrasound appointment.  Until then, we have our regular appointment at Bronson in a couple weeks.  We will probably go to U of M 1 more time after that prior to delivery, but otherwise we’ll just do some co-care with Bronson.

     

    Here is a profile.  I guess that is some brain development, so that looks cool.  The smudge by his face is a foot I think.

     

    This is the foot that kept getting in the way!

     

    They tried to do a 3-D image but of course it  looks all crazy.  I only share because I love those toes!   The other smudge by his face must be an arm or something.

     

  • Day of tears and reflection

    Today started out rough.  Not because of anything with baby boy.  He is doing great.  The appointment this morning was great.  Easter was great.  Even the weather decided to cooperate lately.  But today started off with sadness as we learned that another baby earned her angel wings.  The CHD community is so open and supportive even though we don’t know these people personally.  Olivia was born December 23rd with HLHS – different from Evan but similarly complicated.  You can read her story and blog here.  Warning – you will cry.  Never take a kick, cry, or sleepless night for granted!  Why God needs to take a tiny baby, I don’t know.   But He knows more than me and there must be some other reason I cannot understand.

    In reading the other CHD blogs, you  run across the same things.  I like this story in particular:

    It’s a beautiful day up in heaven. Jesus is rounding up his tiniest angels, to go live on earth, and be born.

    One of the sweetest angels says to Jesus “I don’t want to leave, I like it here, and I will miss you”.

    He reassures the scared little angel that everything will be okay, and that she is just going for a visit. She is still not swayed on this idea. So Jesus kneels down, and says, “How about if you leave half of your heart here with me and take the other half with you, will that be okay?”

    The angel smiles and says, “I guess that will work”. But the little angel is still a little scared. She asks, “Will I be okay with only half of my heart?” Jesus replies, “Of course you will, I have other angels there that will help out, and you will be fine.”

    Then Jesus gives the angel more details about his plan. He says, “When you are born, your mommy will be scared, so you have to be strong, and when you feel weak just remember that I have the other half of your heart. Enjoy your time with your family, play and laugh everyday. And when its time to come back to heaven, I will make your heart whole again. Always remember that you are not broken, just torn between two loves.”

    -Author Unknown

  • Appointments, Appointments, Appointments…

    Appointments, Appointments, Appointments…

    I am so very thankful that our medical professionals caught this when they did. I feel a sense of calm that we have the opportunity to be prepared for what is going to come. I have been doing a lot of reading and I have seen many stories where the family had no idea, even with the current technologies, that their child was suffering from a heart defect. After seeing an ultrasound of a normal heart and the one of Evan’s, I don’t know how this is possible, the differences are dramatic, but apparently it happens. A family takes their baby home with no idea that anything is wrong, the baby starts to exhibit symptoms like feeding problems, blue lips, lethargic, etc. What a terrible thing to go through. Not having all this worry would be nice, but I’ll take the worry gladly with the ability to plan.


    We’ve had about 4 ultrasounds, a fetal echocardiogram, appointments with doctor’s, cardiologists, high-risk OB’s, etc. The biggest appointment yet is coming up in a couple weeks. We’re meeting with the doctor’s at the University of Michigan for the first time. This is more than likely where Sarah will give birth and where Evan will have all of his surgeries. I am really looking forward to hearing what they have to say and to see the facility. They are the #4 hospital in the US for pediatric heart care so I know we will be in good hands. It’s going to be a loooong day though. 830AM until 4PM with back to back appointments. Cardiologist, pediatrician, genetic counselor, pediatric cardiothoracic surgeon, high risk OB, ultrasound…. It’s going to be a great day, honest. I think we both need someone to help put our minds at ease about this whole thing and I think they are just the people to do it. Don’t get me wrong, the people at Bronson hospital have been great, but they have not seen nearly as many of these things as U of M. Our cardiologist at Bronson has only ever had one other patient with exactly what Evan has (and he’s doing great and has completed all his surgeries). I really want to hear it from the experts in the field that see these all the time.

    Well, I should be getting to bed….Daddy boot camp in the morning. I can’t imagine that I am going to learn much, but that’s ok. 🙂